Im an ignorant and i know it. Do you?

  The other day i was talking with a an adult with a lot of experience and knowledge.  He is very dear to me and respect him just as much. He decided to give me his opinion about how i am living my life and i gladly received it since he is one of the few people who i accept has the right to voice an opinion about me. The conversation started simple and i was being my usual self without my complex thinking and just enjoying the simplicity of the moment. Although, this man had a different plan in mind and the conversation took a different turn to a more complex one.

He easily stated i knew nothing of life and was lacking observation skills since life isn't only about being good in school work or getting great grades. He also commented that i am very intelligent but being "book smart" wasn't enough to go through life and thanks to this i am stuck in a type of innocence. My answer: "I couldn't agree more."  

I am an ignorant just as i am a fool and i know it. The reason I am living my life the way i do is to fulfill many goals i have set myself and between them is to have no regrets and be the complete opposite of what i am now, an ignorant and a fool. I'm an ignorant for many reasons such as having overprotective parents who isolated me in the forest and now have a lack of basic experience thanks to this. I'm also an ignorant because i don't know everything about anything, its simply lack of knowledge. Although i have a secret; i like the idea of being ignorant in some matters in the moment because it means there is just so much to learn of the truths life has to offer. It would be truly boring if life was so poor.

Since im an ignorant and know it i am now studying in the u.s.a  my last two years of high school. I reminded this man that i am on my own when i have to do my payments, go to school, get ready for college and move on my own while i am in a house that is not my own, live with a family where i do not belong and can not ask for help simply because i can not be a hindrance since i am there for free. Living in mexico i had my family, home and friends where i was never on my own. Now in in the "real world" on my own and my ignorance/ innocence where i had to do it one way or another. I bluntly stated i did not know what he wanted me to prove with this conversation but that none the less i had already proved it by just stepping on that plane. I survived if you will, at age 16 turning 17 to live in the real word as the ignorant i am while i knew nothing of it and came out on top of everyone else all on my own.

 I had to agree. I am an ignorant who is book smart but still did great on my own. I did great because i know im an ignorant and confronted this fact with pride and no shame since im human. Life is so limited to waste time fighting it than just easily accepting it and fixing it. I had to bluntly compare my life at this moment and his at mine. I know im ignorant, do you?

  I had to tell this man i knew i was an ignorant, but what was the difference between him and me? He waited for an opportunity to come while i fought for it. My life is filled with zero regrets only because i endured for that. My life has the same value as yours because its a blank page. Whats written in it is what you wrote in it. Every day, every second is a day that can make a difference in OUR lives.

My biggest dream is to reach my maximum potential and become the best me i can be. I live as a human, as a child with my flaws, accomplishments, ignorance and foolishness because these aspects make who i am today. I'm proud of each and every one simply because i wont be where ill stand tomorrow without going through them. I can only be myself and accept who i am. I can be anything else but a fool because i believe the biggest sin of all is not being yourself.
So, I'm an ignorant and i know it.
 Do you?


                                                                                               Gabriela Barrera