My motivation

 Through my life until now i have always been blessed and spoiled by God. I have always felt Gods embrace around me constantly reminding me i am not alone even when i have a bothersome feeling of solitude. This solitude isn't that no one is around me or me fighting alone. My solitude is the fact im living my life to know who i am. The people who surround me, who love me for who i am have always helped me, because no matter how hard it gets i can be strong and confront it. Even if it means i have to be away from them to follow my dreams in a house that i do not belong. I can be strong and fight, just as i can be strong enough to shed my tears silently.

  For me, strength is a part of who i am but it purely consists of my friends and family. My friends give me the need to be understood by someone else and the comfort of trust we built  together. My family gives me my beginning since they gave me the wings to learn how to fly, and the unmoving faith in me and my dreams.  They are my strength and love, because without any of them i wouldn't be who i am today. But, they are not my motivation.

Everyday i get up in the morning, i mainly because i have to go to the bathroom, but i see myself in the mirror and i don't know what makes me who i am. My dreams are things i want to do and accomplish but that isn't who i am. So what makes me, me? Is it what i like, dedicate myself to, my decisions, actions, hopes, dreams? I think that is just part of myself, the effect of who i am in my life. My motivation is understanding in what makes me, me. I also notice no one else knows. I ask and they answer with material things such i previously mentioned. What if i take away all of it, and leave them blank. What would they answer? There name perhaps?  Life is a rode that helps form us but it isn't part of us. We are independent, even when we depend on life, when we die none of what you do matters, just who you are when you die. So who am i and who do i want to be tomorrow? 

 I know one thing though, i am who i want to be. I determine what will be my essence but since i don't know who i am at this moment i don't worry about the future. So, yes im strong enough to say me weakness and fears but they are also my strengths because they remind me im perfect. Im human, a teenager that makes mistakes and is afraid, but i know it and i comfront them, feed off them. I couldnt be more perfect because im as free as can be. Free to be anything, anyone without restriccions and at the same time be myself. I may not know what makes me who i am ,but i know who i am.  

My motivation-me.

                                              Gabriela