Each passing day

         Dear God

         With each passing day i always learn something new about the society in the U.S.A and how to live in it, but i also feel I lose myself in trying to get by. Simply the boys here don't really respect girls and will keep pushing to get what they want. I'm sure there are great guys out there too who respect girls and are gentlemen. I hope i meet them because ive being surrounded by idiots and playboys. Im not mad at them or have something against them but I truly feel sorry for them since they have no idea what price they'll pay later on.

         Why is it i feel so dirty? So disgusted and tired? I want to be with MY friends, I want to be with MY family and yet i cant. I have to wait months to be able to do that and am growing tired. This family im with, i love them. Filled with freedom and love, its nice. In my opinion i don't have one and i prefer it that way. I will never truly fit in because even if they are my blood they are different. I truly do no want to be like them either but myself.

          Why did i come here? I abandoned everything i knew to find who i am! To understand what I want, what I dont like, and to understand WHO i am and who I want to be. I was starting to live as the typiucal teen age girl who goes to parties, meets boys, and lets her grades drop! Thats not who i am, thats not the person my parents trusted to come to the U.S.A by herself in search for a dream. In search for a future. Of course if everything was too easy, why would we do it?

      One way or another ill figure this out! I love you God! Thank you!
                                                                                                              Gabriela