Whist youll be there

In a house that isnt mine, in a house where i dont belong, no matter what i do there is just no way i can be true to myself and be the perfect guest at the same time. I will always be compared to and i will never be fully acepted. I will never be good enough. Never. Because it  is exactly not my house.

 Im sorry God, i dont want to stay here. I dont want to feel the environments feelings of negativity. I dobt want to see them pointed to me anymore. Healing is very lonely, isnt it God.  

I feel in the way and that i dont belong here. Im in no way better than them, but im not beneth them either. We are equals. Our beliefs, age, sex and way of living is so different, and since we dont know how to truly love we hurt eachother     And yet you still believe in humans. Still believe in this family, and believe in me. To move forword from all of it, facing it and growing stronger either closer to you or farther away. Please guide me, please guide us. Thank you for never leaving me, for always being by my side. 

I ask, please, give my aunt the rest she deserves, the answers she seeks and the healing she needs. 

My cousin says i have a lot of bad luck, i honestly dont see how i have bad luck, i see how blessed i am for your trust that i can go through this. Ill  go through pain, anguish in tears and youll be whilst carrying me on your back. Thank you!

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                                                                                             Gabriela Barrera