Abandonment

Im drifting in my own limbo,
what was once my temple,
has lost its interest within me,
and as such lost its importance,

Where once i stand,
im lost not knowing where i am,
not knowing where to go,
i have ceased all which was safe

Im confused and alone again,
harboring thoughts of hatred and revenge grow,
i cry as i watch my death state resurface again,
defeating previous victories i has already won,

No longer knowing if im walking,
feeling as im runing away from myself,
as i dont bring comfort anymore,
i have lost warmth which used to be abundant,

overwhelmed by sadness,
i recognize this stage as abundanment,
never experienced this before
my anguish is virgin and suffocating,

Im falling through this sorrow,
making itself painfully  known to,
This torture im begging for death as it would show mercy,
this cruelity becoming who i am,

Im gone,
neither dead or lost,
i merely exist staring the stranger,
this stranger who once was me.

This stranger yearns for comfort,
a comfort which no longer exists,
looking upon what was lost,
Finding my reflection laughing mockingly in return.

Ps. Please leave a comment and let me know what you think.

                                                                                              By Gabriela Barrera The fool