I don't want to stay here at Starbucks, but I also dont want to go back to that house. I dont want to feel the distance that has grown between us. I dont want to be reminded that you were once a safe place for me to love and now you are someone else's home. Now, that person is your safe place as well.
I dont want to see it, I can not bear it. Do not get me wrong, I love you. Fuck, I love you so much. It's real, its unconditional and its too much at times. See, that's the thing that fucks me up though. I will get out of the way so you can be happy, because I WANT you to be happy, to love and be loved even if that means I have to be out of the picture.
Then I get stuck because its so fucked up. I have never loved anyone the way I love you. I also know, I have never fought or stayed for the things that I want and always convince myself not to fight for them.
I want to fight for you, but I dont think you are mine to fight for anymore.
And I love you. And I don't want to let go, but I see it despite not wanting to.
You aren't mine anymore.
Yet, Ill always love you.
Gabriela B
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