Dear God
Night after night I would
always say thank you for everything you blessed me with. I would ask for your
help and then I would say thank you for everything I received and didn’t
receive and so on. To be honest, I always thought each night I would say thank
you for everything and not leave anything out. Recently, I noticed it’s not
that way. I’m in the middle of stairs leading to my next stage in the U.S.A
where I’m going to lean and experience many things. Some will be painful but
others wont and I think those moments is what makes it precious. To be honest I am nervous because it’s
something I can’t control or predict which is the future. Even so, I learned I
have to live the present because it’s one of the greatest gifts in life. The
fact we have today to change something, do something or simply say something so
we won’t regret it later is a blessing. Knowing this, I’m even more scared to
leave the stage I’m on with regrets. I’m scared to forget to say something to
someone, to forget to do something or to simply forget to live today. I’m
scared to have to learn what regret feels like.
Some time ago, I
was thinking on how I had made the first step of realizing my dream, witch is
going to the U.S.A, thanks to my efforts and thanks to you God. I was convinced
it was thanks to my hard work and everything you did for me. I was wrong,
completely. Its thanks to my parents.
My parents aren't
perfect. They make mistakes all the time as parents and as human beings. They
have a lot of defects but their qualities shine through brighter. They get mad
easily, they always have to be right, they hurt each other, they have a weird
necessity of quieting the other, they don’t listen to each other but they are
always there for me. They always support me, punish me when I deserve it, worry
about me, care for me and simply love me. Well, with that I can tell you just
how awesome they are.
My parents dream is
for me to be better than them. They want me to be successful in life the way
they never had the opportunity to fulfill their own dreams. While in my mind
what’s going through is: how can I possibly be better than them? I mean, I am
who I am because of them. I’m strong enough to go forward because of them; I
think the way I do because of them, I’m good at what I’m good at because of
them. I am where a am because of them, I’m going where I’m going because of
them, ill be who I’m going to be because of them. I am me for me because of
them. Everything is because of my parents who love me with all my defects and
qualities for the simple fact I’m their daughter. They sacrificed, fought and
endured so many things for me because they love me. They are in full support of
my dreams and fighting hard so I can reach them. How could I ever surpass these
two wonderful beings?
God, I’m
told perfection doesn't exist, only you. Even so, I believe perfection does
exist, and perfection are my two parents. For me perfection is a human being
who lives day by day with all his qualities and defects, with all his mistakes
and imperfections, with a smile on his face. My parents do that and so much
more, apart from the fact their worriers. My parents are my pride, my
happiness, my love, my heroes and my life. They taught me many things, and I
will always carry them with me, even if I don’t want to. If I simply chose to
pick up the table its thanks to my mother who taught me etiquette. If I choose
to buy or sell something is thanks to my father who taught me about economy.
Even I know I can’t write down just how much they mean to me, how much I’m
thankful. Its impossible to put into words because they do not exist.
God, I never
thanked you for my parents. As I said before, I don’t want to regret anything
later but right now I’m regretting to not have noticed sooner how blessed I am.
If you ask me:” If you love them so much then why are you leaving?” I would
answer: I’m leaving because my parents deserve happiness, and their happiness
are their dreams. Their dreams are for me to reach mine. I’m leaving exactly
because of that. For all of our
happiness.
God,
Thank you for my parents.
I will never be
grateful enough for this huge blessing, I will never be able to fully be
satisfied with any way I say it or show it but I have to try. So, thank you. I
don’t deserve my parents or anything they've given me but thank you. I love
them, am grateful and proud to introduce them as my parents with a smile on my
face.
Thank you
Gabriela
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