I have heard its easier to give your back and walk away than having the strength to stay and fight. To put it bluntly- I wish I could grow a pair and walk away from many things in my life. Those moments when I WANT to feel defeated but KNOW I can still keep going-are the worst. My instincts yell at me to move on but my burdened mind ,which seeks peace, begs for mercy.
I find it hard to let go or give up on people when they only bring struggles and heartaches. Usually by ones flaws do we know when to walk away but somehow, I can overlook this so easily and see so clearly their talents or virtues. Its in this I trust -that they will somehow florish and see their own worth.
Its extremly rewarding to be patient but at the same time extremly taxing, since it requires infinite tolerance and forgivness. But also being selfish doing this because one day i will need someone to be patient in me, to know my worth when i dont know it myself and forgive me.
Othertimes, it's easier to keep going even when we shouldn't because we don't want to think about it. We don't want to take responsibility for it. And most importantly we don't want the struggle we went through to be for nothing.
I believe there are times when i should give up, walk away and never look back. This is a strength i dont have at the moment, but I well understand even considering is hard without placing judgement upon ourselves.
To fight is to be brave but to give up is willingly choosing to be weak, so we can later rise stronger.
I look forword to the day when I am completely weak and able to live with myself. In that moment I will aquire a different type of freedom-the freedom of being.
Gabriela-The fool
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